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Boxing Day
damn boxing day was crazy.
Brenda, Chrissy and I spent the night talking and we had a only aFEW drinks..
well 27th was suppose to be spent with someone else. that didnt work out. oh well its not the first time...
Things have been going really different these past few days for me.
But right now i want to depend on the ONLY person that i can trust. Jesus.
Everyone else can break your trust. Only some can break you. But only one can crush you.
and Jesus will never be any of those people who are there to hurt you whether intentionally or
not.
well its time to pick myself up and walk away. I guess you were right love...
you dont deserve me. I dont deserve shit.
If you ever need me,
you know how to reach me on my 24 hour hotline.
but i need my time to move away. until im ready to be there for you as how you want me to be.
So until i can look you in your pretty eyes and think of you as nothing but a friend-which is what you want-
Goodbye...
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 8:31 AM:.
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Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again
Cuz I fear I might brake
And I fear I can't take it
Tonight i'll lie awake
Feeling empty
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all the days that we spent
Carry away from home
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Without you
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
But I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 8:22 AM:.
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Met my 2 scouts today, they just finished their N levels and needed some advice on what course to pick..cool guys...met both my best buddies today too. Had a few laughs and argued with someone over the phone...
tomorrow is gonna suck cause i have to meet them and defend myself. so its 4 against me cause my bro's cant make it.
Im doing my best to remain positive about everything. but i guess this blog is one way where i can just choose to write what i want...
I miss you everyday. i hardly ever get to see you cause everyone else has a higher priority. not angry...just sayin thats all...
By the way, are you still at zero? 50 maybe? or all the way back up at a 100? or are you just running away right after i caught you? jeez i dont know...im still the idiot waiting...
how many times do i need to fall to learn a goddamn lesson? you would think a guy would learn after burning his fingers :/
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 8:57 AM:.
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If i drift away
will you still think of me?
If i drift away
will you still look out for me?
If i drift away
will you run to me if i needed you?
and yes....we should sue hollywood
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 7:11 PM:.
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You brought me to the edge of the cliff
to see how beautiful the world can be
with you by my side.
Why did you push me off?
Dangling from the cliff
You grab my hand
kept me from falling
immediately.
Hold me
Why are you letting me go?
Why are you letting me slip away?
I dont want to die. not now.
not like this
Hold me
Why arent you pulling me to safety?
Is it because you want ME to let go?
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 11:05 PM:.
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and i want to come with you.
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 7:15 PM:.
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My heart you left
Broken, withered, dying there
Kept it hidden in the darkness
Never knew the truth
Girl you should know
How i was kept
From knowing that you never really loved me
Dont make me cry
I never thought that this would happen
Dont make me lie
Pretending that you never happened
Stop thinking that
My life would all go wrong without you
I wont regret walking out that door before you
My heart you left
broken, withered, dying there
Keep it hidden in the darkness
Never knew the truth
Girl you should know
How i was kept from knowing that you never really loved me
Dont make me cry
I never thought that this would happen
Dont make me lie
Pretending that you never happened
Stop thinking that
My life would all go wrong without you
I wont regret walking out that door before you
Sick of your cries
Tired of your lies
Hate trying to see as if she never happend
I wont regret
Wont try to lie
Wont think you loved me ever since we started
Dont make me cry
I never thought that this would happen
Dont make me lie
Pretending that you never happened
Dont make me cry
Dont make me lie
Stop thinking that
I wont regret
-Isaac Patrick
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 2:30 AM:.
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I think i am being kept in the dark right now.
I need to light a fire in this place.
I need to see...
I need your warmth...
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 9:19 PM:.
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The amount of homework is amazing.
but its keeping me busy. which is a good thing cause i dont
want to think about things right now.
Notice how when everything goes quiet, and you got nothing to do,
you think about things that hurt you, things that went wrong.
Im really doing my best. but how much can one person hold?
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.:Isaac Patrick blogged on 8:07 AM:.
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My name is Isaac Patrick
I started this blog to be able to just right my thoughts, songs, feelings....what not...
So enjoy reading :)
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